Destiny

This week was a blast. :)

SEPT 20

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIA TERESA KAREN R. TORRECAMPO and PATRICIA ISABELLE VILLARMIA KALINGKING :)
I want to thank both of you for being part of my life. :) I hope somehow, I made your day special :) You deserve more than that :)

SEPT 21

INTERNATIONAL PEACE DAY, MATH and SCIENCE WEEK

The "Meet the Experts" were entertaining and creative. Our class (IV-PAMAYANAN) won the Interactive Quiz Bee, The Block Buster, and the Mural Painting Contest. :)
CONGRATULATIONS ANGELA DELA CRUZ and JESSIE ERICTA for winning the Filipino and English Oraorical Contest for the Eco Week :)

SEPT 22

Congratulations PAULINE NICOLE TAN ****** (Chieng Shang Wu(?)) and KATRINA MARIE GO SANTI (Hypatia(?))

Hahaha! :) GO Pamayanan :D

I'm beggining to love my fourth year life (at last!) I've learned so many things today. :)

Kailangan din naman siya ng ibang tao. :) Learn to move on and let go. Kailangan din naman ng tao yung gift of friendship niya kasi.. hindi lang naman ako ang may kailangan sa kanya. :) Things have changed. :)

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened :)

YOU ARE WHAT YOU READ :)

Hindi talaga natin macocontrol ang destiny. DESTINY CONTROLS US. :) Hindi ako ang dapat lumapit sa iyo kung ako ang lalapit sayo. Time and destiny will be in charge of the right time, when it is already my turn. (OO ALAM kong malabo.. PERO I THINK GETS TOH NG MGA TAONG KILALA KUNG SINO TALAGA AKO :))

One of the most memorable week ever :)

I had my ACET yesterday :) It was soo easy...EASY TO FAIL, that's what I mean. The grammar part of the test was OK. The logical reasoning was just fine. Reading Comprehension (well, that's somewhat my weakness, but nonetheless it was fine), General Information was OK.. even though I don't really know the answers to some the questions there. Vocal and Analogy was fine. as well.

MATHEMATICS and ABSTRACT REASONING were the parts that killed me softly to death. Hahaha :) I mean, we were like given a short period of time to solve math problems and all I did was "shot the gun" all the way. Hahaha. Imaaagiiine!!!!

I hope I did my best in "SHOOTING THE GUN" all the way. I want to pass Ateneo so badly for college, as much as I wanted to pass U.P., but I don't think I don't have a chance in U.P. anymore. (HAHAHAHA!)

The days that passed before ACET was fun! :)

Last Thursday, I was able to talk to my friend that somehow bothers me. Eventually, we talked things out, and it went great.. even though....... It still stabs my heart seeing **** ****** **** **!!!! I know it's not my prerogative to feel that way towards them, but it really hurts. Pain is so hard to take away from you.

Last Friday,
WINDANG TO THE MAX sa MATHEMATICS. Hahahaha :) Gahhhd! I got inspired that day. :) I discovered that I can already solve the Math problems that were my weaknesses before. MY GAHD! Hahaha :)

I NEED TO REVIEW MY BASIC OPERATIONS.

Biro mo last Thursday, I wrote on my paper 9+4=16

HAHAHA. HOW STUPID! hahahahahaha!!!!

Oh Well, But I learned so much from my mistakes :D

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September 8,2006, without a doubt, was one of the memorable days that would be worth reminiscing as days pass by.

I received my *@!*$#!+ report card. The first quarter of my fourth year life ay ang pinaka kagimbal gimbal at pinaka masahol na gradong naattain ko sa kasaysayan ng aking pag aaral.

I know it's embarassing to inform it to the whole wide universe pero, shockssss. 6 of my subjects were "almost failing" but I'm so thankful because my teachers did not fail me anyway(although those grades were still considered to be utterly and extremely low)

PRESSURE SETS IN NOW I'M ALREADY A SENIOR. I miss being in THIRD YEAR... sooo much!! AS IN, yung third year, nakakapressure, in a positive way.. but being in 4th year, it is kinda different already.

Ay nako. Bakit ba paminsan paminsan, kung kailan nagiging masaya ka na, at some point in our life, we experience the miseries at the other side of it. we experience the so called IRONY OF LIFE. Why does it have to be that way?..

BUT RIGHT NOW, I take it as a challenge. Something that would help me to strive for the better. Sometimes, in life, akala mo, yun na ang para sayo, at magiging happy ka sa something na yun, but once na makuha mo siya. dun mo marerealize na minsan akala natin nagiging masaya tayo dun, pero sa totoo. "It's not for us or it's not meant for us".

I know,I know, I don't make any sense at all, I just don't know the exact words to say with regards to this.

SHAAAKS MAYGAHD!

I need to settle the things that i have to settle and get this over with.

Yesterday...

All my troubles seem so far away

Some of my Patrolmates were here yesterday. We talked about the things we have to do for scouting and AP Balitaan. We even wrote our goals, and do's and dont's on a manila paper to stay away from distractions. Thus, we were able to succeed. Haha :)

After that, we watched some Horror Movies. Charie Kay's mom was supposed to fetch Charie early because she had to go somewhere. Charie refused though because we were still having our movie marathon. When we realized that it was already getting late and Charie Kay's mom was still at SMF, I asked my groupmates if they could just sleep over at my house. Karen and Ave was supposed to hitch a ride with Charie. Since, it was already getting late, they did not have any choice but to sleep over here as well.

I think I am not scared of blood anymore. Seeing 5 horror/morbid/gory films made me strong.(Labo nun ah?!)

We watched OMEN, FINAL DESTINATION 3, THE NUN, SILENT HILL and SAW II( I was not able to finish SAW II though because SANDYMAN already came while we were watching that movie)

Wahahaha! :) I'm so hooked up with Horror/Gory Films right now. Especially when I'm watching them with my friends. :)

RANDOM FACT: We were laughing our heads off while watching SILENT HILL.

Since we watched PIRATED DVDs, we can't expect to see a perfect subtitle. But this was waaay "going overboard"

TRUE LINE: GOD PLEASE HELP ME
SUBTITLE: THAT SOYBEAN CAKE (hahahaha!)

TRUE LINE: ..blablabla SEAT BELTS
SUBTITLE: ..blablabla PEACE MAKER BELTS.

..so! hahaha! :D

You never fail to make me smile :)

Amegahd

This day had been so stressful for me. AS IN. I can't take what's happening anymore. I can't take the news I have been hearing. It hurts me so much. I can't take it anymore. What does she have that I don't. I FEEL SO INFERIOR.

..But I thank my friends and classmates, who are there for me. I want to apologize as well. (Muntik ko na kasi mabasag yung binatana namin)

Wala ng pinatutunguhan ang buhay ko. Wala na talaga siyang direction.

Witnessing what has been happening makes me want to go back to third year once more. Things have been so different now that I'm already a senior.

What does she have that I don't? Am I that UGLY? Am I really that bad person? Am I really that kind of person who has nothing to be proud of?
That's the feeling I have, realizing that YOU are becoming distant from me. Never in my life did I experience such experiences like this in my 16 years of existence, until you came, you showed up, you made me happy, and suddenly. you left me vulnerable and weak.


I'm so thankful for my friends. For listening, for comforting me, and for understanding me. I'm so sorry if I act this way. I just can't take it anymore. I don't know how to react with this kind of situatiion anymore.

Jealousy

Jealousy is what makes me weak; it makes me vulnerable, leaving me helpless in the end. The only person who could alleviate this grief I feel within would be the particular person who stabs me in the back emotionally. That particular person taught me how to smile and cry, all at the same time. Things have been so different when I had parted ways with this particular someone. Now that this person is close to other people, I could not help but get jealous. My jealousy hinders me from doing my best. Right now, I’m so distracted for being so jealous that is why, my “serious free fall”, is when I flunked my grades last quarter and not being able to fulfill some dreams I would want to achieve because of being distracted by the hurt that has been accumulating in my entire body.

Kevin Gnapoor

Yo Yo Yo!
All you sucka MCs ain't got nothin' on me!
On my grades, on my lines you can't touch Kevin G!
I'm a mathlete, I'm a nerd,
But forget what you heard I'm like James Bond the third,
Sh-sh-sh-shaken not stirred - I'm Kevin Gnapoor!

The G's silent when I sneak through your door.
And make love to your woman on the bathroom floor.
I don't play it like Shaggy, you'll know it was me.
Cause the next time you see her she'll be like 'OOH! KEVIN G!'